Dreams changing...

Well, I'm done. My days of wearing that coat will be fewer from this moment on. My days of sleeping in that station are now less. The days of my husband worrying as he listens to the scanner waiting to hear me on the fire ground will be almost extinct. Yesterday was my last day as a full time employee of the Fire Department. I have so many mixed feelings about this decision... But the one that is standing out the most amid all the chaos in my brain, is the feeling that is coming from my heart. That feeling is telling me that it is the RIGHT decision, and it is the right decision because of my daughter... I LOVE this little person! And because I love her so much, I will sacrifice what I thought my dreams were, to find out what my dreams truly ARE.

I made this decision a while ago, and some of you know the struggle it has been for me. But, I'm glad I've made THIS choice. I recently started reading, "I am a Mother" by Jane Clayson Johnson. I feel like this book was written for this very moment in my life. I love one quote that she shares in it by Elder Neal A. Maxwell. He says, "When the real history of mankind is fully disclosed, will it feature the echoes of gunfire or the shaping sound of lullabies? The great armistices made by military men or the peace-making of women in homes and neighborhoods? Will what happened in cradles and kitchens prove to be more controlling than what happened in congresses?"

So, I'm going to make sure that the histories made in my kitchen and home are great histories. I want to give my children every advantage available to them, and if I can do that by staying home with them more, I'll gladly do it. Besides, I want to watch every moment of Olivia growing up I can. It's better than "saving lives and protecting property" any day!!